I wish I could be just like my mom when she was young.
She always had perfect grades, she was an obedient daughter, did every little thing right.
I wish I could be like a big computer system, flawless, perfect; so I wouldn't forget anything.
I constantly lose my stuff, that does not makes her happy, she always yells at me.
"You're stupid", "Why can't you be more reliable?", "You're a complete mess"
All I can think back is: "Yes Mommy, I love you too"
It has been quite a while since the last time she told me she loved me.
I think I was like...9 or 10 years old.
I'm 16 by now, and it's really not pretty having the sensation that your own mother hates you.
I love her, with all of her issues, most of them are now my issues as well, and still, I don't mind, God sent me to her, she was meant to be my mother my Flawful flawless mother.